Pedagogy

A Projection On Paper story by Zachary Storch

My father taught me the way of the blade. He said the most important thing to remember was why he taught me.
“I teach you so you learn when to use it,” he said.
I took that to heart, but never to mind. We started with wooden sticks that we threw into the air. He showed me how he cut them such that they would split into eight pieces before landing onto the ground. I cut them once only.

The next day we went out to the river, and my father placed his blade into the stream and showed me how his blade cut the water and anything that touched the edge of his weapon. I asked him why he did this, and he said it was to show the danger. That made me confused when we were slashing at flying sticks again the next day. I cut one twice.

Later we moved on to hunting. There were wolves outside of town, and we exterminated them. I asked him what the wolves had done. He told me that they had pillaged chickens and grain. I took that as moral and a reason to use a sword. A thief. Thieves could face a sword.

Then it was sticks again. I cut one four times, but it was only a fluke. The next I could only cut three. Father cut them all eight.

We sparred, too. A dangerous thing for certain when our blades were live, but we did it. He scraped my arm and it bled badly. We stopped then. I cut him back when he lowered his blade. I expected him to be angry, but he applauded me. No mercy. Merciful people could face a blade.

I grew older, and my skill had improved. I cut the sticks six times now. Father had gotten older too. He only cut them five now. He still taught me, only now I knew I was the stronger. I would always learn from him, even now that he is gone.

Bandits came by town. I decided to find them. Father came with me. I cut all I found down. Then we came upon a woman. She held her hands up and cried for me to stop. Father urged me the same, claimed she was innocent, that she was just one of their wives. She had a small dagger on her belt. Were she innocent, she would have struck her husband down. I turned my blade upon my father. I cut him down, then swung back at the woman and she fell with him.

I returned home as a hero. I would still learn from my father in his death. I would never do as he had done.

Never Meant to Last

I dragged my fingers through the sand and
asked myself how anyone could find this zen.
This fire eating at my mind, these gripping tensions breaking,
bursting through my veins.
I raked through the garden with the metal pronged toothpick,
my blood boiling like whistling pot.
Swung my arm, got up, turned around, lashed out at the first thing I saw.
Sand showered over fallen scattered shattered glass.
It was never meant to last.

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A Perfect Storm Never Fades

The clouds have not parted.
The sky is still grey.
From the ground itself shines a bright phosphorescence,
which makes it look like day.

That is not to say that the cloud cover cannot lessen,
or that no ray of sunlight can ever shine through.
But, by giving up on dependence on the sun above, one can see that the truest light shines from me and you.

Illusion

We walk this path along a road between fallen trees,
leading deep into our minds. Roads separate, side by side. I heard a crow call from your road and I stopped to turn around. It was not there. Or I could not see it. It was only an illusion. Illusion.

There may be another way to live, but if there is it has never been known to me. It’s the exact same to say that there could be another way to see. All of these perceptions, lenses, do they amount to anything when we can only know one? I cast them away, they are in doubt. Just an illusion.

Illusion, a lie. Real is what is near to me. Real is what I can touch, smell, feel, breath, know, think, perceive. I cannot perceive what others do. I cannot look the way others do. I never want to. I know the truth. I know my way is my way, the others are an illusion to me. An illusion.

Cast them off, these lies of empathy. Just because I can know things about you and what you feel does not mean I can feel it as you do, from your vantage point. I will never know how you feel. I can never know how you feel. To know is an illusion. Nothing more than an illusion.

Take it down like a painting covering a crack, throw it off like a mask. Destroy them. Crush it in your hand. I did. It felt amazing to me. Would it to you? Take a try, throw all you know away. Spin it around and turn it about face sharply, watch as it dissolves into illusion. A complete illusion.

We walk these paths, side by side, never crossing. Can they be crossed? Can one ever change lanes, lenses? My mind is my road, your mind your road, and perhaps there is only room for one on each. I will learn to try to know you. I will learn where the illusion falls. If it is the void between minds, I will know you. If the illusion is the idea of empathy, then may we continue in our own thoughts, never knowing another’s. Or perhaps, may we give in to the comfort of illusion.

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Criterion

I have had a thought bubbling in my head the last few days that I think I am ready to put to words. It started when I was enjoying a slice of pizza.

It was a great piece of pizza. The crust was soft and high quality, the sauce was tangy and fresh and the cheese was flavorful. I was very grateful to be enjoying this slice of pizza.

I then started thinking about the person who made it. Was he as proud of his work as I was pleased to enjoy what he had made? Surely, no one could be fulfilled from just making pizza at a pizzeria, right? What about the person who owns the restaurant? Maybe they have found fulfillment from their success? If I have a day where I do not project something, I feel useless. Everyone must want to create. Continue reading

Winning

The only way you can ever fail is to give up.

Success is what happens when you give up on losing.

Winning is failure at its finest,

for when you have won, you are done.

 

I’m not being poetic here, I am being philosophic if anything. Life is fun because we are never in a situation where we can just sit there in paradise, that is, unless you are one of the few people who ever reaches that point of fame. Yet we have people that famous, and know what a lot of them do? They tackle problems, like hunger and stuff. They don’t need to, and people can say it’s for money but they don’t need more money.

No one wants to win, everyone wants to succeed. Succeeding is like a lesser form of winning, a form which is less depressing because you have to keep succeeding in order to hold on to your place of success.

I’m going to strive for success.

Lost to the Wind

Sometimes I wonder what it was all about. Others I wonder why I fought back.
It could have been so easy to say yes, to give in.

It was unheard of, untold of. From thin air it came out of.
Like a gust of wind it moved. So fast it lacked sound, traced only by its path.
It moved surroundings as it went, a phantom presence.
I saw that gust everyday. Knew it was special,  but did not know what to say.
Then you saw it and I knew it was real. We gave it a name, which gave it a form.
The form gave it power, it gave it strength. It moved as it had, yet now visually traced.
The creature was large, ungainly and horrid.
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